Hello Guys! I'm back in hospital. The cancer that was being killed off has started to grow back, fast. Faster than expected. I'm ok. But I am literally crapping myself. This note is just to get the message out there as quick as poss to all my family and friends. Please spread the word that my blog is back in business. Please don't inundate my family with the how's when's and why's just yet. Once my treatment is settled in I will get up onto the web and explain all.
It's happened very fast and tomorrow the 13th of may (which just so happens to be a Friday! Bad luck for cancer!) the quacks are hitting me with new drugs! Only this time it will be worse and my chances have narrowed some! Don't worry. I will be giving a full account of the last few weeks soon but for now. Pray for me, if you do. Leave notes on the page because they help me keep going and by all means offer any kind of support to the greatest support team the universe has ever known... My mum (a human who has more capacity for love and devotion to being a mother than anyone ever) my girlfriend, Inna (the irrepressible Russian who will singlehandley do all she can to make sure that we will grow old together) and my dad (the shire work horse who wouldn't flinch for an ato second when it comes to fixing, fetching or generally being there to absorb all the technical speeches!)
Speak soon everyone...
A very scared Chris 'Milton' Ivin. Xxxxxx
Bloody hell Chris, Dont know what to say but we are thinking of and praying for you all the way.
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Ant Lisa and Grace xx
i am scared with you love...praying like i've never prayed before (and thats the truth :-) you will do this...I know... so much love and positive thoughs going your way xxxx and to Inna, Mum & Dad,,words can't explain how amazing they all are....
ReplyDeleteWe love you babe....Mitch,Bobby and the Grovesy gang x x x x x x x x x x
Keep fighting Milton , every second of every day . We're all willing you on . Best Wishes Ian Tush
ReplyDeleteLeft you a message on Facebook too Chris - keep fighting and beating it like you have been. Have dug something out to send you - will hopefully make you laugh! Oh how we toured - Margate, Newquay, Ventnor, Sandown, Shanklin, can you guess? Yes I have the footage - of you, blond haired and blue eyed. Will pop it in the post.
ReplyDeleteKeep going mate and stay positive, or the vid goes public - got it!
Hey mate, really sorry to hear the news, we're all really rooting for you, and hoping and praying this next round of treatments give that damn cancer the big heave-ho for good this time.
ReplyDeleteStay as positive as you have been and you'll beat it for sure.
Love and best wishes to you, Inna and your mum and dad, Stephen, Alex and little Samuel. xx
All our love and thoughts are with you Chris and we are praying for you, as are lots of others. Keep strong, keep fighting, keep that positive attitude. You will beat this. Lots of love. Ana, Mark, Oliver & S x x x x x
ReplyDeleteYou knob head. I've just cleaned the barbecue and was going to have you both round. Now we'll have to wait 'til you're out again!
ReplyDeleteWe're praying for you. Let us know if there's anything else we can do.
Charlie.
Chris, you are so good at being positive and upbeat and relaxed that its easy for us to forget that you are battling this dragon of a disease. But you need that positivity - please dig deep and keep thinking good thoughts. We are all here for you and your mum dad and Inna.
ReplyDeleteSending you all our love, every day. Kate and Sam xxxxx
Unbelievable strength Milton. Thinking of you. Thought you might like to know, Spurs battered 'Liverfool' and will hopefully now get 5th!!
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Milton, you've been on my mind since we spoke on Thursday. Dig deep, just dig as deep as you can and hold on. You're going to get out of this - but probably have a bad time along the way... and this is one of those bad times. When I crossed that London marathon finish line under 4 hours I had a very warm feeling about you.... getting old with me and our families. That has not changed. And if I have to run another 1, 2 or however many marathons for you I will. (Don't worry, the next one is just for fun - you don't have to sponsor me - you can upgrade from Tesco Value Range Lager! We will be praying hard and will mention you in Church to get some serious prayer coming south to you.
ReplyDeleteLove from Steve Alsion, Isaac and your God Son Daniel. x x x x x
Chris,so sorry to hear the news but you will get through this, like you said you have the most amazing mum and dad and of course Inna.You are all in our thoughts and hearts,so keep fighting! With all our love always to you,Inna,Margaret and John. Love Liz, Richard, Libby and Jack.xxxx
ReplyDeleteLittle I we are thinking of you every moment of everyday. We are just so so sorry that you, Inna and your mum and dad are being put through this. We are here for you all.
ReplyDeleteThe past few days have brought so many flashes of happy and funny moments into my head. There's the big man hug you gave Chris when he asked you to be his best man. When you totally went for it in Southall getting your traditional Indian outfit, (you so wanted a turban!) the Tyson fire when we cut down the last of that massive tree, when you and Graeme came and helped me tidy our top floor flat in Tyrwhitt Road the many many times you have chaired mine and Chris's disputes (ok they weren't so funny).
You've have always been there big man. We love you. Noreen, Chris and little Howie.x
hello big fella, as you know words don't flow so fluidly from my finger tips to the keyboard as your lyrical master pieces on previously posted chapters on your bog but hear goes!!.
ReplyDeleteI cant begin to imagine whats going on in your mind at the moment but all I know is that I keep thinking of John hartson and Larnce Armstrong and all the other great survivors who have unfortunately found themselves on the same shit road as the one you have found yourself on at the minute.But they did find the right exit with good doctors and treatment and got back on smoother road back to good heath Never forget that all things are possible and you will come through this. Keep thinking positive and focus on your self getting better, try not to think of the unknown. I am always hear for you just shout out!!
Yours Bardo.
Chris, I have been a shit cousin, when it comes to keeping in touch; but by the same token so have you. Let's call it quits.
ReplyDeleteDo you remember when we were in Malta and I chased you in Mellieha bay. In the shallow water and basically kept rugby tackling you (yeah right like I could ever play rugby) and you just kept getting up; again and again and again. We had such a laugh. You bounced back Chris. You were smaller than me then (soon to change when you hit puberty and I never tried it thereafter) - you bounced back again and again and again.
You CAN do it Chris. Focus, think positive - it can ONLY do you good mate.
Forest Gump had it wrong. Life is not a box of chocolates but it IS a fried egg: You have no control over the white bit that is out of your influence. Concentrate on the bit that you can influence: the yoke. That is the things around you and most importantly your own mind and soul.
There are 3 little boys in this house who are praying for you, and one very big star in the sky.
You will do it Chris. Love you. Dave and Melanie x
Come on Chris...use that South London grit and determination we all get at birth as a rites of passage to cope with Sauuff Laaundeen living!!
ReplyDeleteWe are all fighting and wishing and hoping hard for you.... you are not alone and if willpower alone can get you through then you'd have this beat in a flash of an oodjamaflip!
Lots of love to you, and Inna and your folks...
Clare (and Simon) xx
Kick kicking this bastard in the nuts. Dig deep and find that strength to keep going and if you think you can't dig any deeper remember everyone is rooting for you all the way. Was chuffed to bits when I saw you at Wembley the other week and am looking forward to that beer. Love yoooooooo! Lionel ;)
ReplyDeleteHow about this for a deal mate.
ReplyDeleteIf you hurry up and get better, I will personally give you BOTH my home and away tickets to the Millwall v West Ham games next season. I'll even hire a light aircraft that will fly over the 'Den' saying 'AVRAM GRANT millwall legend', oops that already been done. How about 'Milton is our Leader', you decide!!!
You 'can' and you 'will' win this battle mate.
If you need anything, just ask. We are all right behind you buddy.
Lots of love
Mike, Amanda and Amy xxxxxxxxxxx
Christophe,
ReplyDeleteIt’s at times like this when I wish I was more articulate, but since texting you last week the only words that have entered my thoughts are ‘Fuckity fuck’.
When you came over to visit on my birthday it was a relief to see you in such good spirits, having undergone such trauma, and now I’m counting down the days until you come over again, or you possibly invite us over for that illusive bacon sarnie and cup of tea.
Having spoken with your Mum I know that you’re not feeling too upbeat, and I want you to know that you are at the forefront of our minds. It’s at times like this when you need to draw strength, and you have no better support from Inna, Margaret & John, your family and friends.
I’m sure you know how highly you are thought of by everyone. You don’t need me blabbering on. But we love ya. Loads.
Keep fighting and win.
Mark
Chris, lead the with the left and guard with the right....hang on, no, lead with the right and guard with the left...actually scratch that, just keep on keepin' on.
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54 our 4th boy. The power of family and friends will be behind you all the way and you have got lot & lots.Love always to you and Inna.
ReplyDeleteMate, I don't really know what to say. I'm gutted, we are gutted and you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI can't begin to imagine what its like for you, Inna and your Mum and Dad - even trying to sends schivers down my spine - but with all these thoughts, prayers and positive vibes everyone is sending out I know it will all come good and you have to believe that too.
Now, I know this is gonna sound random, and for those of you who don't know me I am gonna sound like a massive odd ball but...since I heard the news on Sunday "Eye of the Tiger" keeps going round in my head!!!
On that note my friend I'll sign off
Much love from me and traffic Ant.
Amanda xxxx
Hi Chris - just a quick one to let you know that all of the Scottish clan in Edinburgh are thinking about you, including Gavin, wendy, baby Sam and my Mum and Dad. Those of us who pray are doing so and the rest of us are sending you the biggest load of positive thoughts and love that we can muster. WE WILL see you up here on 26th August for my birthday bash with the rest of the Massive to celebrate not only my birthday but your recovery. Let's get busy living. Big Love and hugs to you and yours. Anne.
ReplyDeleteChris, really difficult to know what to say, unusual for our family!I can't think of any words of wisdom, so I've nicked someone else's...human life is indeed wondrous. You may be ill physically, but as long as your mental state is strong, it most certainly will exert a positive influence on your body. There may be no better remedy than hope.
ReplyDeleteKeep on kicking cancer in the nuts, Chris. With love and admiration. Joanne, Steve, Ryan and Tom xxxx
Hi Chris, when I heard your news, the first phrase that came to mind was “what a F****** **N*”,. If you can call it a phrase that is, hope no one takes offence. But life is like that at times, FACT ( see that’s not a rude F word).
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you,. Although I am not big on praying, I have and will continue to do so until you are fully recovered. Stay positive, when you feel you can,. As I am sure it is very hard, and a roller coaster of feelings and emotions. With love of lots and positive thoughts, Claire ( Tom’s aunty)..xxx
Hi Chris,
ReplyDeleteI was absolutely gutted to hear what you've been going through and whilst i haven't personnaly any idea what your actually going through, i do have some idea what it's like for your family after everything mum has gone through.
I can't stress enough the power of positive thinking and whilst at times things may look bleak, i'm damn sure you'll give this big C a run for it's money.
Just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts daily and although i'm not a very religious person i've prayed for you and will continue to do so.
Much love and well wishes coming your way
Love Yvonne (Butterfield) xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Chris, Milton, but always Freddy to me,
ReplyDeleteI know you can beat this. I am going to pray everyday that it won't be long before I am running in bowling a pretend cricket ball at you again in some carpark outside some stadium somewhere where we are both working kind of thing! I bloody love you and am gutted by what is happening with the Cancer. So sorry we didn't get to have a bigger catch up at the FA Cup semi final last month.. Keep fighting mate... Believe.
All my love
Barnsley, Hoggy, Steve.
Hi Chris, We're hoping to organise a camp reunion on the Isle of Wight sometime soon and it wouldn't be the same without you so you had better hurry up and get better. I remember the first time Hatcham came to Regimental camp and we all thought that there would be World War 3 between you guys and the Wealdstone lads but you proved us all wrong with your charm and your wit and within hours you were the best of friends. Please push any dark thoughts from your mind and concentrate on the power of love that is coming your way from every corner of the world. You will get better!!!!! Lots and lots of love, Liz & Kevin Butterfield
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ReplyDeleteBlog is an inspiration, hang tuff bro.Had some fun times together, seems like a lifetime ago!! from an original wealdstone bad yout
David sparks
Hi Milton,
ReplyDeleteWe'll miss you big time the next couple of weeks in Paris, but will be praying for you. Hang in there and keep fighting!
Andy
milton! keep fighting my friend! we are sending lots and lots of good, positive vibes your way and pray for you and your family. thinking of you every day. xoxoxo jenn
ReplyDeleteAnyone else and I'd be worried. But of course we still pray for you. See you soon you big oaf
ReplyDeleteLove Pilesy, Mel and Archie (and of course 'Milton' the bear
Milt,
ReplyDeleteStop pissin' about and give it a good kicking!
You've got at least another season before you can get bragging rights by beating Charlton!
Keep blogging and fighting!
Big thoughts and wishes,
Kevan D.
Stay strong, brother. Stay strong!
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Festus
"we all thought that there would be World War 3 between you guys and the Wealdstone lads "
ReplyDeleteWe'd have kicked their milky arses. FACT
Chris & Inna !! Me and Bromballs are praying for you and keeping our hope for you mate!
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