Sorry for the delay between my writings. As you may or may not know I recently received the dreaded news from my consultant that the b'std inside had reared its ugly head YET again... A persistent little bugger!
It has hit us all very hard as you can imagine, especially after a very special and excellent festive period for the future mrs Russian and I! (for those that don't know, I was having dinner with the russian's mother, brother and my ma an' pa when I was carrying in a tray of starters, accidentally fell to one knee, and suddenly found myself asking her to marry me! As luck would have it, there just so happened to be a 6 claw, white gold, 0.6 carat, triple excellent cut diamond ring in my right pocket... So that was nice... Her response was the usual standard reply to anyone they are madly in love with... "oh, I can't believe it... No no no.... No no... Oooh, Chris, the roast potatoes are burning!" She did eventually say yes and our potatoes were saved!)
I did promise the Chris Ivin blog 'Christmas special' earlier but it sort of hit the cutting room floor, ie, didn't get finished because of the massive deflating body blows I took from my consultants bad news.
The current news, that is hot off of the press and straight from the hospital is the results of my P.E.T. Scan and the MRI scan of my swede. The news is that the size of my tumours in all areas have shrunk according to my CT scan. A pet scan marries up with a ct scan. A pet scan involves me getting an injection of radioactive glucose which makes any active dividing cells 'light up' on the scan and they can see which areas are active. The conflicting and confusing news is that as well as reduced size NONE of the areas have showed signs of activity. But my dreaded tumour marker blood tests continue to rise. We and they (the doc's) are stumped by this news. I dont know if this is really bad news but it is certainly very perplexing.
I want to really thank everyone who has sent many messages of support in this low time, thank you so so much. Again it is humbling, remarkable and always amazing when I realise just how many people out there are really thinking about me and i can feel the super power of everyone's well wishes and prayers. They really keep me going.
My way of thanking you one and all is to get better and get out there and see you in the future, healthy and happy and when i start enjoying my life with my fiancé! Wooh!
For now, guys, the time from the Russians birthday on the 14th of December right through to the beginning of the new year We have had a great time. We were looking toward the future together with a new hope. We are still looking toward that future but after a seriously scary meeting with my doc we now realise that the road of recovery has been littered with quite a few rocks and boulders.
Never fear the chin is still very much up. I need to accrue things to keep my mind distracted in the near future. Hence the reason why im down in Bournemouth this week, with the russian, doing my part to sell very bright, shiny dresses to some very bright and shiny, sexually ambiguous ladies and gentlemen! As the picture below shows her hard at work.
But for now I will sign off by saying that the battle goes on and my chin remains held firmly aloft... thanks to you lot out there, thinking about me and my support group!
I want to see you all as soon as its physically possible. I love you all! X
